before I sleep at night
i say a prayer for you.
when I’m with you,
i smile at the smallest things...
laughs
words
smiles…
to this day,
my heart flutters when you look my way
when you
kiss me
wink at me
say you love me.
before today,
i didn’t realize how much things have changed.
i never want to return to
the day before
i met you.
suddenly,i
have a reason to wake up.
a reason to smile-
to be thankful-
to pray to God,
that’ll I’ll never lose you.

[	mood	|	chill	]
[	music	|	marroooooooonnnnnnnn 5	]

my pup is crazy. my dad, for once in his life, bought a beautiful and expensive oriental rug, and he hates dog fur to be on it. i think zoe knows this....erego, every morning, she is found sprawled on the new rug....and her face is contoured into an almost-smirk....haha.
the cachophony i choose to have my ears bleed to is currently the sounds dave matthews and maroon 5.  sunday.mornings. make me smile.... so does the song. actually, i despise sundays... i realize that it is the day of rest and believe me, i'm quite a faithful young lady, but it's the beginning of a whole new week that eventually drags and drags.
i miss 3 people like mad crazy. those people, in no specific order, are my sister, john, and megan karbley.
you see, my sister is off in austrailia, but shall return in several weeks. i'm jealous that she is an aussie for a semester.....maybe i'll be italianie or irishie for a semester... i recieved my application for baruch and emerson. i will go to one of them for the rest of undergrad, and then one for graduate. yay for marketing.
hell, maybe i'll be a romance novelist when i am 50....or a journalist. maybe a poet... i like writing. and words. i also.like.punctuation.!? <------ like that.

anyway, my sister HaTeS wHeN pEoPlE wRiTe LiKe ThIs.....i FiNd It QuItE eNtErTaInInG...we are moving into a fancy apartment the day before she comes home and then, we're off to wilmington for the weekend. i'm excited because we'll stay up all night and talk with mom. my mom is fun also. we're moving to new york city maybe...i may have to go to boston for 2 years first. i'm lucky to have a fun sister. she's really cute. i love her.

i also miss mister dandison. he's lovely. and eats cereal only with cold milk. he drinks about a gallon a day....milk is his favourite. he likes to pick me roses from his rose garden and he complains when i make him watch a chickadee flick-but you see, i think deep down, he enjoys them. he likes wicker park. he lets me cry during movies and he lets me yell when i'm mad and then laughs. we laugh a lot. and smile. he is sometimes messy in the room we share, but then, will go on a cleaning spree and it makes me laugh because he'll bag up all of my things in a corner......of course, i empty them and the room becomes messy again. he calls me beautiful more than 6 times a day and kisses me at 5:83 every day. i wish he sang more for me. i like his voice... he plays the drums for me though. that's really neat. i love him. he also leaves me messages to wake up too...and i leave them on the bathroom mirror in my cherry flavoured red lipstick and green eyeliner.

lastly, i miss miss karbley. we're fellow spin instructors and coffee drinkers. she's my favourite friend at school and she is away in spain for a few more weeks. i miss her like mad crazy. she promised to bring me home spanish earrings but if she forgets, it's okay because i just want to dance around the REC with her again and wear her clothes. i like her hair. and her smile. she's really pretty and her laugh is contagious. i love her too.

um, today will be eventful. my brother, who is sometimes a lot of fun, and i will go to a lake and swimswimswim. fun times, right? i bought 3 new bathing suits and they are hot. one has polka dots and the others are black....i like the one that is strapless.

i like songs about jane. i bet jane is beautiful.
i like the name emmy. 
i want to see rent on broadway this weekend when i go to the city to visit my new cousin carolina.
did you know my confirmation name is Karolina? yes, it is. it was my great-grandmother's name. the one that i am a replica of. we look exactly alike, my family says. i sometimes don't like that because i always thought she was kinda funny looking...maybe it was the photograph. those 1900's photographers kinda sucked.

time to swim.
better entry next year.
xo
heart
ceciLia.marie.karolina.